so it's goodbye again

ok so you all know that hope is going to africa in a few days with my dad to do a medical clinic and such since she is to be a doctor...what you don't know is that i had a total breakdown today and had to leave school cause i freaked out about them leaving...especially my dad cause it's goodbye again to quote John Denver. i act all cool about it and such but i really do mind it when he leaves cause there is that stupid and treacherous voice in the back of my head saying he won't come back and that scares me a lot. and i'm also majorly tired and don't feel good on top of all of this so it's making me think that i'm making myself sick again from worrying and i missed being able to talk to mr. mac today cause i came home and tomorrow i'm missing the whole day cause mom wants us girls to go have a day before hope leaves and i sorta don't want to do it cause i would rather be able to talk to mr. mac before they leave so that i don't just burst into his room monday morning crying and saying.."there gone and never coming back!" cause that's how it would happen and there is no doubt about it. i cry every time i talk to anyone about anything serious and it bugs me because i never used to cry and that is a really long sentence...i feel almost out of breath.

constelations...

the world would be far better if it went like all Jane Austen novels. Every girl finds heartbreak in the wrong man, a Mr. Wickam, or perhaps a Mr. Crawford, God forbid even a Mr. Willoughby, but then continues on to find some man in the Clergy like Edward Ferrars, or Edmund Bertram, or a rich Mr. Darcy, or Mr. Knightly. and they go off into the sunset without a care in the world. but alas, it cannot work that way. we only get half the tale if any in this world. but that is probably all our own faults.

you may wonder at my talking so much about Jane Austen but it is all because i have been watching each of the movies, well most of them, in the form of BBC or some other such way. i have not seen Emma, Persuasion, or all of Northanger Abbey(but i do not wish to see the last one). it makes me laugh to see how much the author loves clergy men, just think of it...

Pride and Prejudice-Wickam says he wants to be one and would were it not for Darcy and Lizzy starts to fall for him.

Mansfield Park-Fanny falls in love with Edmund and he is bound to be a clergyman since he is not the eldest son

Sense and Sensibility-Edward Ferrars falls in love with Elenor and they end up getting hitched even though he is to become a clergyman.

Northanger Abbey-Henry gets Catherine in the end to love him and all seeing as he is a clergyman

Emma-George is not a clergyman but he is a landowner so he is not a loathsome business man or anything like that, and he gets Emma

Persuasion-a naval officer which means that he can marry people which is practically a clergyman...well maybe not but close enough

so 4 out of 6 men in 6 books are clergymen. i love it :D and all of the heroines are portrayed as not of their time, you know like they are so very different from the people of that time. i love how Austen just separates her characters from everyone else like that. so easily and so obviously. they can never be similar to anyone else but you can easily see the things that they have in common with each other. all being avid book worms :D

i have decided that i will read straight through the book hope bought me that contains 4 out of 6 of Jane Austen's books (excluding Mansfield Park and Northanger Abbey) after i have completed my Anne of Green Gables Series, which i happen to love at the moment even if i am a little shocked at the thought of Anne and Gilbert's first child dieing the same day she is born, i don't care if it makes sense so that Anne and Leslie can be close friends with no wall, i hate to see Anne suffer so. but it doesn't matter cause i all ready know that they have 6 kids in the end :D can't wait to read about Anne and Gilbert as parents, that'll be interesting. but for now i must be off for a woman is yelling for me to be off :D

Lara

contacts.suck

so here i am with drying contacts in my eyes and a buzzing cellphone in my lap...hehe tickles...we just lost to Western Mennonite but it was a pretty good game in my eyes. i took pictures and such but found the card reader in the classroom was broken, but have no fear for Lara has the answer... you see i have too many card readers just lying around my house so i'll bring one in and we'll just have to use that one until the school can buy a new one, i hope it was the school's and not Mrs. Davis' though cause that would suck majorly. i left a note saying that it was broken and that i didn't do it but i don't think she will believe me on that one. i'm trying to come up with a good question for my men's basketball page and what not and it's just starting to bug me to think that i have to write yet another body copy and then find a picture to put up for this and that. i need to go to sleep though so i will see you alls laters.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^lovely grammar for a future English major no?^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

Lara